| what do you do when you know your passion can never become a reality? what if just knowing that fact alone makes you want to hold on even harder to those fleeting years?
this is what i constantly ask myself whenever i question being on cadc. i love it, but i know that nothing except fond memories will come out of it.
i find myself constantly battling between dance and education. although my high schooler self would choose education over dance, i find this a harder decision in college. what is it about the ridiculously long hours of practice that kill my sleep and studying time that keep pulling me back in? i've made the most amazing memories of my life just going around socal competing and just doing performances for kids who absolutely love us, but is jeopardizing my major and career worth it?
at the same time, i question my major. do i really want to become an engineer? at what point in life did i decide that this was the major for me? i was never a major nerd to begin with, and i'm not even that good at math and physics (especially physics). im naturally good at the humanities, but i can barely imagine living my life doing those jobs. so again, what is it about this major that is so appealing to me?
i know that with a lot of hard work and studying, i could get by, but i also dont want to sacrifice the limited amount of time i have on the team. being an undergraduate team only, my years are VERY limited. so what's next? spend every second of my life literally dancing and studying only? give up one for the other?
decisions....
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| crazy storms in irvine right now
this is probably worse than what i've seen in norcal
WHAT IS HAPPENING!!
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| two things i will never get tired of
pho
ramen
i don't know what it is about these two dishes that just constantly keep me craving for more...
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| last night i did dance a thon which was hosted by kaba modern.
basically they teach you a piece of choreography that you keep doing over and over until you get tapped out. whoever wins gets to perform with kaba modern at shoktober fest.
i went into this just trying to get into the final round, but after the competition started, i didn't care whether or not i made it anymore. plus i got tapped out at about round 7 out of 10 so i'm really proud of myself! i thought i did pretty well and there are high hopes in my future dancing career :P
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